Five Minute Friday gives us a chance to write straight from the heart for five minutes, without worrying about over-thinking or over-editing. It lets us pour out our souls on paper… er, computer screen… for our readers. And this week’s topic is once again perfect for how I’ve been feeling lately. How does she always know?
I feel like my spiritual gauge has been siting on empty for the past few weeks. It’s been one hard lesson after another about being content with God’s plan for me right now. It’s been one test after another reminding me that His ways are not my ways.
I’ve been trying to focus on Him instead of the waves. Trying to keep my gaze on Him instead of the scary road ahead. But I’m human. It’s not always that easy.
And yet I know that He is walking with me, keeping His very eye upon me step by step. I know that He has a perfect plan for me, that He is working in my life right now, plans for peace and not for evil. I know that He is weaving these trials together with His love and mercy to mold me into a more useful vessel, a morebeautiful vessel for His glory.
I may feel like He is silent, but then isn’t the Teacher always silent during test-time?
I may feel like I’m running on empty, but it’s only when I am weak that He can show His strength. It is only when I am helpless that He can prove His power and faithfulness. It is only when I am emptied of my own thoughts and ways that I can cling to Him in full surrender, desiring only Him, fully content with whatever He brings my way.
It is only when I am empty that He can completely fill me.
“But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
[2 Corinthians 12:9-10]
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